Have You Ever Seen the Rain?

It poured down rain most of the day.  It was the third day in a row I’ve been inside, most of the day, with a disagreeable toddler.  He isn’t ill…but he isn’t feeling well and is definitely not himself. We are lacking sleep in a big way, and we are just getting by.

As a serious down pour hit, I looked out the window and had a moment of panic.  I am super strong most of the time.  Why, in a moment, did I suddenly feel helpless?  There is something about a storm that makes me want my mommy.  She is on a plane to Eastern Europe for the next few weeks.  So, that’s not going to happen.  The grown up side of me just wants my husband to come home and deal with everything.  He is otherwise detained in the Middle East.  Sigh.  Now what?

I sat there thinking I was going to start crying, and then I started laughing.  I laughed because I knew I didn’t really have time for this little panic attack thing that was coming on.  There were calls to make, a schedule to finish for the school and church, emails to send, information to gather, and a few other things before the baby woke up and the kids got out of school. That sense of overwhelm hit me like lightning.

Whenever I feel overwhelmed, I immediately grab my notebook and start making a list.  I find the only way to deal with it is to take it one task at a time, and as soon as I start putting those big lines through the list, the overwhelm seems to go away.  I was told once that “when you get busy you get better.”   I find this works in a mysterious way.  Although it was a feeling of despair and hopelessness that lead me to panic, it was a simple list of tasks that defused those feelings.  Getting busy does make it better sometimes.

 

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1 Comment

  1. Dory said,

    October 9, 2010 at 2:17 pm

    I can completely relate to this post as I just went through this. I was back east with Ford recently and all it did was rain. Having grown up on the east coast rain used to be normal and weather didn’t faze me growing up. Well now as an adult with a toddler and nothing but rain I had a complete meltdown by day 3. Being sleep deprived as well did not help which i find is usually the culprit when I can’t deal. When I finally got it together, I bundled the both of us up and went right out into that rain. We found every puddle in the neighborhood and had a blast! It definitely helped and I highly recommend it next time it comes around.


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